Connecting with the Ego and Steps to Create Balance Within

Rating my own well being ......Well let's say that it is a scary place for me to go.  I have encounter much pain, chaos and uncontrollable events that have been traumatic for me. Me being a sensitive being and feeling the emotions, energy fields of places, people or things that I encounter can create much anxiety for me.  So let's take a look at who I am and where my ego stands at this point in my life. On a scale of 1 to 10 and ten being the optimal well being...HMM I need some work and feel that it will be an awakening of the mind.  My physical well being I am in the middle at a 5 due to I am a stress eater and when I feel blue I go inwards to look for assistance.  So therefore I isolate myself from others and my whole environment. My spiritual well being I feel closer to an optimal well being at an 8.  I reflect often, journal my feelings and look for inspiration to apply to my mind so that my spirit can grow and love all things.  My psychological well being is headed in the right direction due to me just losing three people that I am close too in a 5 day span.  This opened my mind to look at my life, my goals and where I am at in my life goals.  I realize that in the cycles that we go through change and death physically can change your view in a spiritual sense.

Long Term Goals for Optimal Well-Being!!!!!

1. PHYSICAL: Take more walks in nature, this will help me balance my metabolism, mood and create physical changes for my body which is my spiritual vessel in this life time.

2. SPIRITUAL: Reflect more on my inner needs, work on healing the inner child who experienced events that affected my state of mind. By releasing and letting go I can heal.

3. PSYCHOLOGICAL:  Well I currently and taking steps to work on this goal.  I am working with a therapist to get insight on my actions and work on changing what I do to create a more positive environment for me to work in daily so that I can work on my life goals.  Since my mind is constantly spinning with thoughts we recently talked about how I start journaling and stop after a week.  It was nice to hear confirmation that I can journal when needed so that I can release my emotions and thoughts.  I learned that I set up unrealistic goals for myself and when doing this it is harder to accomplish what I need to grow and heal my mind.  It took me years to do this I would go to a therapist to talk, then it would feel to painful emotionally so I would stop going. I recently decided that I cannot do that and that I need to learn to take care of me first instead of everyone else around me.

MEDITATION

So here I go again listening to a soothing meditation exercise.  HMM...well this one I found beneficial for me to take a look at different areas of my body.  When taking steps to do this and adding color and windows to look inside was a good way to feel open.  I felt like I was a beautiful prism seeing the flaws and all angles shining like a rainbow.